One Year.

One year ago, today I took, what was then a huge leap, to launch my very own personal blog. Its intended purpose then was to give me a safe and judgmental space to express myself and my vulnerability in whatever way that looked for me. It was a way to share my writing and give it more of me. I was just starting Graduate School and I knew that what lay ahead of me wouldn’t be easy, and that it would challenge everything I thought I knew about myself and it truly did.

What started as a journey of Self-Mastery ended up being my introduction to the expansion of my spirituality. This was the very first step towards becoming my whole self. This day was really the start of a new way of life for me. As I was in search of ways to connect more with myself, I found that I connected more with others too. This scared me because before this year I wasn’t ever very good at making friends. I wasn’t ever any good at coming outside of my comfort zone and being myself in any place or space. I found it very difficult to connect with others for fear they would get or understand the real me, honestly that ideal grew from the fact that I truly didn’t understand the real me. As I searched for more inner-standing and connection with myself I was challenged to take responsibility for all the time I spent in my own way. I cherish connecting with others and making new friends now, when there was a time it made me anxious out of my mind. I cherish being comfortable enough to share my heart and mind space with others because there was a time where my insecurities convinced me no one would care what I had to say if it wasn’t trendy cool or popular.

Connecting more with myself made me honor and love myself more, made me acknowledge and hold space for myself more. In each new way, I learned to be there for myself, I learned to be that same thing for others. My blog gave me the strength and courage to do all of this. I acknowledged and loved every wound I discovered. I forgave myself for neglecting them and extended myself compassion for not addressing them sooner. I tackled my struggles with selfishness, co-dependency, boundaries, and love. Looking at where I started and where I am now I feel like I’ve taken a rocket to the moon. Who knew I would be here. Who knew I would be touching souls and sharing my own so openly.

My own journey is a reminder to me to never underestimate ourselves and what we are capable of. It’s a reminder to take the risk at following your heart because you may accidentally find your purpose. I saw my future in community mental health, dedicating myself to educating the black community on the importance and benefits of mental health treatment and mental health in general. I saw myself researching and working to make a difference within the mental health medical model. Connecting more with myself through my blog helped me figure out who I really was. My authentic self wants to create a space for alternative healing methods. My authentic self wants to invest in the education of holistic medicine and encourage my community to take care of themselves mentally spiritually, physically and emotionally. I want to facilitate education in Spiritual self-wellness, awareness, and mastery. I want to help others recognize the spiritual beings that they are and how to best navigate this life thing.

The most influential aspect of this year has been revamping and rebranding myself and my blog. I did this because I gained clarity. Clarity of my vision and my purpose. I am a healer, a helper, and a guide. I am meant to live this life and experience these lessons and share the universes wisdom. I am meant to love on the masses of people I encounter in this life because that is what they need most. That is what we all need most; Is unconditional love and support in knowing that it is okay to be our authentic human selves at any and all times.

Getting in connection with yourself is the start, and with time and patience your path aligns to you and the vision gets clearer every day. I have so much I am preparing for and preparing to establish, I will accomplish all I set to. This is only my beginning, I’ve already surpassed my original expectations and I am promising myself to never sell myself short again. I appreciate everyone that has been present for this year long journey and everyone that will continue to journey with me. I am forever a student of the universe, of God, and of Spirit. I seek to learn more in efforts to share more. As I become more enlightened I seek to enlighten my soul family and my community. I believe that we all we got in real life and as I learn grow and shift for me, I also learn grow and shift for you as well.

I lead by example in personal and spiritual growth because I understand how hard it is to look at yourself and not like what you see or where you are or what you’ve done. Self-reflection is painful but it is necessary. There’s so much healing and abundance on the other side of the pain and trauma we can’t make peace with, or acknowledge. I am learning now more than ever that we all carry our fair share of demons that still intimidate us and drive fear in our heart spaces. We know fear is a lie, and as odd as it seems loving the darkest parts of yourself is how you reach that optimal level of self-love. Perfection is not attainable but positive intent and motives are, self-compassion and kindness are.

From me to you, follow your truest hearts desires, no matter what someone else says or what others are doing. Understand and digest that this life you’re living, this path your walking is yours and no one else can walk it for you, no one else can have the path you’re on because it’s yours. No one is obligated to see your vision but you!

I love you all so freaking much! For supporting me, sending me love, and letting me truly be me!! Happy Anniversary to the creation of my Personal Blog, Happy Anniversary to my Journey to Self-Mastery, and Happy Anniversary to my first full year awakened to my assignment and aligning to my paths purpose.

Be true. Be beautiful. & Be blessed

-B